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Happy Summer Solstice!!!

mae – June 20, 2012 – 4:41am

Today I had a mini-breakdown (actually, still breaking down a bit….maybe it’s the heat? hahahah). While at work, as I looked around my office…my place of comfort….monthly income, stability, benefits, friends….and I thought to myself “I can’t believe I gave them my notice last week and next Friday is my last day. June 30th I journey West…into the unknown yet known…leaving my comfort zone…security…most all my materials….for what? To Live the Dream. Literally, the dream I had nearly 13 years ago.  

I started crying…and a coworker came in and asked me what was wrong. I shared with her my anxiety and I said “I think I have lost my mind…what am I doing? Who leaves a good job in this economy? What if….”  Blah blah blah…. And this she told me “Monica! No! Everything is going to work out! This is the right thing for you. I lost opportunities because of fear…you are going to shine!”

I have so much Gratitude for all my friends who have been rooting me forward, for without them, I would not have the courage to Live my Dream.

My heart and soul are guiding me and I am finally on the right path….though my Faith and Trust is tested each and every day.

Less than two weeks…actually 9 days…I head West….17 days I arrive at Esalen….armed with Passion, Determination and a Massage Table….hahahahahahaha….

The Circle was nice today….I could feel the energy as I closed my eyes and traveled in Spirit and Heart….my tears dried and a big smile embraced my worry…I feel so connected…even from Afar…I Honor you All ~

                 ~~~ Thank You!!!

Happy Summer Solstice!!!

Awaken Abundance with Positive Renewal!       

mae – June 20, 2012 – 3:04pm

My supervisor sent this out a few min ago....

Dear Colleagues,
I am writing to share with you that Monica Eastway will be leaving Weatherhead on June 29, 2012. 
Monica has been at Weatherhead for four years and currently is our Graduate Admissions Advisor. She has been instrumental in guiding many our incoming students to the program that fits their short and long-term goals. In addition to her work in our office, she has introduced the Weatherhead Wellness Program to encourage all of us to live healthy, happy and productive lives.  
As Monica begins this next chapter, I look forward to all she will accomplish. She said, and I quote, "I would have never known my capacity to lead had I not come to Weatherhead".   She is headed to Big Sur, California to pursue, what I know for sure,... her passion.  She will begin graduate studies in Transformative Leadership at the Esalen Institute which is well known for its leading work in human potential through experience, research and education. 
Please join the Student Services team on Wednesday, June 27 between 4:00 and 5:00p in PBL 150 to say farewell.  And for those who are able, please join her following the farewell celebration for Wade Oval Wednesday.
Deborah L. Bibb
Senior Director of Admissions
Weatherhead School of Management
Case Western Reserve University
mae – June 21, 2012 – 10:32am

Monica, while everyone is braggin' on you, i would like to say what a pleasure it has been reading your posts over the past months. Originally i wanted you to take over Frank "silence is golden" Poletti's job at esalen ctr, but in light of recent events, maybe you're needed in an even more critical esalen capacity. Seek a little counsel from mr. Steven and you are good to go....admiration and best wishes....henry

henry glenn – June 21, 2012 – 11:53am

Awe....thank you Henry....*big smile*

Taking a leap into the unknown yet known is not easy....though, once Authentic Self is Awakened....fear subsides and passion reigns...sure there is Risk...and the Adversity that comes makes for a much more interesting I say "who wants to read about the trust fund kid...folks want to read about the girl arriving on fumes to Live the Dream.....".....hahaha
People ask me "so, will you be working at Esalen?" and I reply "well, I actually already started working for Esalen, they just don't know it yet".....hahahaha and so it is.
As I leave Cleveland...I am not breaking bridges, I am building them.....gathering contacts, getting folks excited about Esalen....a deeply sought after Educational contact already booked a workshop and will be coming in the end of July 
I am happy you enjoy my posts...sort of my virtual journal of personal transformation.....I will continue posting.....I love facebook for me
mae – June 22, 2012 – 5:02am
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I appreciate your positive thoughts and words and actions.  They inspire me.

I gave a catalog to the people where I live and I wonder if someday they will become a little Esalen-like.

Where I am right now visiting a friend who is in pain I feel somewhat helpless in not knowing how to help her.

I hope Esalen will always be a healing place and I think it will be...just the space alone is.  And all the positive influences (leaders) from her inception until now and the place itself. 

Since I have had no sales lately and feel frozen in that realm like "it is being done to me," I am at least using my time to help another.  

I plan to improve aspects of my "business" though it looks expensive.  I do a lot of trial and error.  Thinking I might finally not want to totally reinvent the wheel but learn from others and learn how to operate with others in group settings. (As compared to my isolation and then thrust into crowdsfor something as simple as taking a shower...though maybe the place is changng where I live ... or maybe I am...

(Thanks for listening and being an inspiration).  

I sound vague...I am on a rarely used computer I have no mastery over.  

Rob G – June 24, 2012 – 8:38pm

Hi Rob,

Nice to hear from you!!! I think it is wonderful you shared the Esalen catalog with your community! 

For me, Esalen is at its core an Educational Center. A place where people come and learn how to heal, learn how to live in balance, learn how to connect with the Earth & Cosmos, learn how to transform, learn how to evolve consciously 

A place where we practice what we teach 

The land of the Big Sur has strong transformative energy; a land of Awakening. The indigenous cultures who inhabited the Big Sur were very in tune with Healing, with Nature, and with the natural cycles of our cosmos. The land is Blessed and with Gratitude will continue to share its abundance     

Just by being with your friend, you are helping her. You are receiving the Gift of Giving ~~~ this will help Awaken your Abundance

In my own journey of personal transformation, I recently discovered the root of why in years past I was unable to fully Awaken my Authentic Self:

the Fear of Financial Failure  

This is a biggy, and I have a hunch many humans today suffer the same fear....which keeps them 'asleep' or what I like to call 'living on sleep mode'.  Transformation is a process in practice....and I practice each and every day techniques to Release & Awaken (meditation, nature adventures, mantra, affirmations, sweat lodge, prayer, sound healing, dance, gardening, follow....). 

I Release my Fear of Financial Failure

My Authentic Being is Awake and Aware of the great Abundance our Universe provides

Thank You All!!!



mae – June 25, 2012 – 5:28am

Thanks for your powerful thoughts. 

Rob G – June 25, 2012 – 10:26am

thank you Rob

Practice is mini breakdowns are becoming more frequent as the journey West becomes many 'unknown's' yet 'known'...leading with Heart and trusting intuition is not easy.....I could hardly sleep last much to still do...finally, fell asleep around 5am...had a nice 'astral travel' to Esalen.....and awoke feeling refreshed....then within an hour...another breakdown...getting ready for work, could not find certain things as everything is in a bit of 'disarray' for the move...started thinking "why? why am I doing this? it is so uncomfortable"....

feeling a little better I have to move forward...everything is in motion....and, thankfully I continue to receive signs in dream and during the daytime....these keep me going....9 months ago the wheels began turning....transformation, I can hardly believe the time has come....seems so soon....4 days and I hit the highway....with all my belongings (I have given most everything away 'stuff')....not as much saved as I would have liked and not as much 'planned' as I would have liked....though, there is my faith, trust and belief are tested each moment....much more than if 'all was set'....though, this is uncomfortable. leaving friends, leaving job, leaving comfort.....

I remind myself the biggest risk would to not risk at this point, i am living on Positive thoughts, feeling manifestation, faith, trust, belief and quieting the mind.....practice is paramount   

thanks for being here, thank you for your inspiration ~~~
mae – June 26, 2012 – 4:58am