i am quietly mourning the loss of Tim Russert of NBC/MSNBC news (Meet The Press, The Tim Russert show, etc.) and author (me and big russ - etc.)
I just caught Bruce Springsteen on cable (thanks to CNN) singing at Tim Russert's funeral.
AMAZING.
I've still got the goose flesh. Try to catch it someplace, Dorothy. Maybe on YouTube.
for those interested, the bruce springsteen's video tribute to tim russert can be seen at:
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/25249188#25249188
i've had one old friend call me to say he too was mourning the death of tim russert in a meaningful way. i sent him this email tonight:
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"jl - i've thought of you since your call yesterday. i appreciated it very much. it is genuinely touching to know that i have a friend out there who also mourns the loss of tim russert in a deeper way. i had no one similar to share the loss of dan fogelberg when he passed on, and it's nice to feel a human shared connection this time!
I am not sure if you have seen this. Sincere interview between Matt Lauer and Luke Russert.
good cries are something i cherish......i find such healing in them........and i have not had nearly enough of them lately. so i am feeling grateful. God works in mysterious ways.
Authenticity Heals....
work us into some place where we can emerge molded- softer yet, stronger- (I speak for me, of course)I can't for the life of me get through the regrets- we had a posting over a year ago on here where I said I had no regrets as I always act on my feelings and how wrong now I have been- I will always regret no matter what anyone says leaving and leaving the moment I flew to be with Paddy- until it was the end- I justified everything and then I was too late to be with my own mother too on her deathbed- I left it and left it- Was having a baby- was breastfeeding. Mum seemed okay and finally I was so late and somehow as you mention what Russert's death 'gave' to you was opening something else- like a domino effect and how closely I feel that way.
The people whose deaths I have total completion of and no regrets are the ones whom I went to and stayed with and saw it through. I was too afraid to lose my mum. I pretended it wasn't going to happen and Paddy well...Those thoughts fills buckets of tears every day and no, I am not lost in regret but I want to learn from it- I want to know if there is a next time.... to stay- next time to not second guess- next time to be with him/her and then maybe I can make the other regrets be okay. I know it sound simplistic. I am a simple person. A primitive if you will.
I can't find the healing in his loss. I hope you find it in yours.
Love, Anjela x



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